Goodbye

sometimes our expectations are simply too grand for reality....
sometimes our best laid plans don't unfold the way we intend....
sometimes despite wanting to see the good, all we can see is the bad....

So I accepted a job offer and made my way to New York, this past summer, with a very specific idea of how my life was going to look over the course of a year and I simply did not anticipate certain obstacles being in my way. After much thinking, prayer and talking with family, I realized that these obstacles weren't something I was going to win over with time, extra effort or more kindness. It was the variety of obstacle where the best solution is to just walk away. It took me weeks and weeks to realize that but I did and so my decision was made. I said goodbye to the amazing friends I made in my short stay there, ate some last meals at great restaurants in the city, saw the sites one last time as a resident of New York and packed up bags, got on a plane and left. I am no longer a resident of New York.

It's amazing what one year can bring, how deep one decision can touch your soul and how fierce you can be to protect yourself and your joy. I praise God for the strength He has given me to make these decisions and thank Him for His continued grace and mercy as I find my way.

Nina Michelle