With 2011 literally just minutes away, I sit here in my parents home thinking back on 2010. I'm sure most people do that this time of year, ponder the past, flick through the memories of their mind and dream about the future, imagining what joys and challenges it may hold. I am obviously no different.
The first part of 2010 had me struggling in what proved to be the hardest part of my dietetic internship (admin - anyone?!) while simultaneously mending my broken heart. I hate having to do that, deal with a broken heart, but I can honestly say that I learn a little bit more about myself every time it happens. However, the start of 2010 was not just the start of a new year with a heart on the mend but a new life. I was baptized in January of this year and joined a life group for the very first time in my life. I was and still am a infant in Christ but this year marked the first few steps I'd take in seeking Him, what a blessing!
As the year progressed, I completed my internship, graduated from the program and finally was able to take the RD exam. Weeks later, what a relief it was to walk out of that testing center having passed the exam that I worked towards for years. YEARS!! I also managed to run a 10K (ok, maybe I walked some of it :) ), developed my leadership skills in my life group, passed the last of my courses for my graduate degree and got my first job.... as a house sitter! Ha - it was amazing! Of course, with all these blessings I couldn't help but be worried about what the rest of the year would look like, I needed a job - as an RD - and I needed one fast. Of course, that came in form of a position in New York and went as you all well know.
New York was an amazing experience and one I will cherish for the rest of my life. I saw my first snowfall, ran in my first down pour, was in my first tornado, learned the subway system, ate some amazing food and of course met some amazing people that I will cherish forever. I can't help but say that I wished it turned out differently.... but will keep all the good and positive things from that part of my year at the forefront of my mind and learn from the rest.
The year has ended on a note of mixed feelings for me, happy and sad simultaneously claiming my soul. While I don't regret any of the decisions I've made this past year, I look back and wonder if I made the wisest decisions, if I could have done better, if I could have choose a different path and ended up somewhere else. The answer is... of course! I could have made different decisions, chosen differently but then I wouldn't be where I'm supposed to be - which is right here. I'm meant to be here and I know it with every fiber of my being.. and that friends is peace.
so as 2010 comes to a close and I flick through the memories that made this year so amazing, I want to thank everyone who has touched my life and make the reels that much brighter and enjoyable. I'm hopeful for the new year and all that it will bring, both the joy and the challenges.
With much love
Nina Michelle
Friday, December 31, 2010
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Goodbye
sometimes our expectations are simply too grand for reality....
sometimes our best laid plans don't unfold the way we intend....
sometimes despite wanting to see the good, all we can see is the bad....
So I accepted a job offer and made my way to New York, this past summer, with a very specific idea of how my life was going to look over the course of a year and I simply did not anticipate certain obstacles being in my way. After much thinking, prayer and talking with family, I realized that these obstacles weren't something I was going to win over with time, extra effort or more kindness. It was the variety of obstacle where the best solution is to just walk away. It took me weeks and weeks to realize that but I did and so my decision was made. I said goodbye to the amazing friends I made in my short stay there, ate some last meals at great restaurants in the city, saw the sites one last time as a resident of New York and packed up bags, got on a plane and left. I am no longer a resident of New York.
It's amazing what one year can bring, how deep one decision can touch your soul and how fierce you can be to protect yourself and your joy. I praise God for the strength He has given me to make these decisions and thank Him for His continued grace and mercy as I find my way.
Nina Michelle
sometimes our best laid plans don't unfold the way we intend....
sometimes despite wanting to see the good, all we can see is the bad....
So I accepted a job offer and made my way to New York, this past summer, with a very specific idea of how my life was going to look over the course of a year and I simply did not anticipate certain obstacles being in my way. After much thinking, prayer and talking with family, I realized that these obstacles weren't something I was going to win over with time, extra effort or more kindness. It was the variety of obstacle where the best solution is to just walk away. It took me weeks and weeks to realize that but I did and so my decision was made. I said goodbye to the amazing friends I made in my short stay there, ate some last meals at great restaurants in the city, saw the sites one last time as a resident of New York and packed up bags, got on a plane and left. I am no longer a resident of New York.
It's amazing what one year can bring, how deep one decision can touch your soul and how fierce you can be to protect yourself and your joy. I praise God for the strength He has given me to make these decisions and thank Him for His continued grace and mercy as I find my way.
Nina Michelle
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